So what's it like for you?
For me it's a straight jacket. For me it's a cage.
For me its not trying anything because if I lose these techniques, what else is there to hang onto? The cage will be smaller, the straight jacket heavier, and then I'll be fucked.
For me it's a big fuck you to life and people. It's hating where I am, who I am, what I'm doing.
The problem with this is that I'm too young. If I had a few extra years on my side, I'd fuck off. I'd become the person I want to be. I'd do what I want to do. I'd leave this town and just BE.
It's hard to hang onto the fact that yes, in a year I can leave. That yes, in a few more years I can leave this place. It's hard to hang onto that and not the other options of leaving.
Because it's tempting.

So. What's it like for you?